Misery, It's Wonderful

Misery, it's a wonderful thing.
It watches your back and keeps you alive
Even when all you want to do is die.
You function in it sure, even though it tears you apart inside.
Leaving you cold
Leaving you empty
Leaving you to wonder why you even exist.
Your pain gets to you
What's worse is that it gets to the ones that supposedly love you
It makes you paranoid
It kills every emotion save bitterness
What kind of emotion is that!?
No answer,
No surprise.
People you care about hate you.
The wonderful, lame cause to all this misery
Stupid, hurtful and true.
Your hurt and bitterness becomes your cage
You ask "Can I go now?"
This sucks.
Ha!
No!
You're stuck
Damn, I tried. oh well, can't cry.
No tears left...
Can't die, everyone'd get pissed.
Time to just be.
To just exist.
FUCK THIS!!
Can't I be happy?
Probably.
When Hell freezes over.
Crap.
Misery.
It's a wonderful thing.

A.J. Downey
11-02-1999